Scolded for being Frank

It wasn’t the first time I’ve been pulled aside. I rarely get approached with the leading “Austin we need to have a talk..” Well today I was pulled aside again for what I feel is being too passionate about my job… Some people see it as being too stressed…maybe…some say I’m an asshole…probably true if you’re dumb or deserve it… some say I need to relax… Fuck it , I can’t… I work on a level of stress and passion that gets me the rep of the year status… something I received for 2003. I want things done thoroughly, quickly and effectively to completion – if you don’t like my suggestions then prove me wrong with you’re own methods; right now they don’t seem to work.

So what happened? We’ll I’ve been a little too vocal lately at work about issues and red tape at work. I’m saying cut the bullshit, let’s figure out a way to do something more effectively and do your job to your best ability or find a new one. The people that are threatened by this are understandably concerned. Either they really aren’t doing the job they are supposed to do, they just don’t want to have that spot light put on them because they really don’t have a functional job here, or they just don’t like me. Any way you cut it, I don’t give a fuck.

If I have a customer, a customer that could be doing hundreds of thousands of dollars in business with my company, and they have a seemingly easily fixable issue or request, why isn’t it a resonable request to express some urgency to assist them.

This isn’t the single issue. I’ve made considerable personal requests to get assistance to grow my business with little or no help from other teams. So, again understandably if you’re not helping me, I’m going to your boss (or someone else) and if you don’t like the reasons I give them for me taking the request up the ladder then you shouldn’t be giving me the reasons to move around you. I guess people don’t like the ol’ UTB treatment (under the bus).

I guess they don’t like my “New York” attitude of being blunt and to the point. I don’t have time to fuck around with the bullshit. If I come to you for something either help me or point me in the right direction. Don’t give me empty promises. I need results. Call me an asshole… It’s business not personal. Get over it and yourself.

I guess I might actually have something to say and I’m getting quieted. I guess I’m not playing the “political” game appropriately. Since I feel personally responsible for the promises to customers that I make for other people, and they don’t come through with those requests, my credibility suffers. In my job, credibility and respect carry A LOT of weight in my field. We don’t build relationships with people that don’t hold their word or can’t come through with their agreements.

Fuck em. You’re always a target at the top… So I’ll relax but don’t come to me for help. Don’t come to me for advise, and don’t fucking come to me unless you’re gonna help me make money – I don’t have time for you.

Where’s my deal!?

HighSide!!

The command to have everyone jump to one side of the raft to avoid rapping the boat around a rock called a banana rap, and jumping in for a swim over some boulders. Went Whitewater Rafting last weekend. Yeah it’s Thursday WTF man… I’m a little slow at updates at this point, I know. Gotta say though that it was fun. The Kern river. I had only been on the Sacramento (north and south), America(both forks) and the Russian. This was probably one of the more consistent ones. With routes through Dead Man’s curve, Horseshoe, and Heri-Kari you’ve got to have a good time. Also had some Cliff jumping and rope swinging and it’s all good!!! Picks will be loaded in a few days when I get copies. *gotta get the digi* Plus we had a personal guide that worked with us. Thanks Mike! I might be up for the Kayaking next month but I want to head to HI.

On the market watch. It’s damn crazy these times. All I hear about these days are layoffs. I wonder what’s next, who’s next? No one is immune I guess. I guess the market’s on it’s own Highside…the wrong one. In fact though this will actually be a blessing in disguise for many people. I can’t imagine wanting to go back to corporate after this. My recommendation is to take off! Go live some where else! Move out of your bubble and find something new. There’s so much world out there, why stop at Silicon Valley?