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Rejected in 1995

I wanted to share some bullshit from a former life…. this is a real letter, it happened and yes… I most certainly have moved on and let it go…

I used to send out Valentines cards more back in the day. Valentines is a sore subject and a worthless, Hallmark day driven fully by capitalism and not worthy of the term “holiday”. On Feb. 1, 1995 I received a Sierra Club card from a some chick I was dating and sent her a V-card. Apparently I hadn’t spoken to her in some time and she hadn’t talked called me back in a while either… if you care:

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Austin-

Hey handsome. How’s it going? Well, thanks a lot for the valentine’s card. I really liked it. Listen, I’ve been meaning to talk to you for a while but I guess I just keep putting it off. Anyway, I have really enjoyed all the time we have spent together and I hope we will continue to go out and do stuff together. I guess I have just had too many problems lately and most of the time I don’t know how the hell to handle life in general. I don’t know why we stopped seeing each other there for awhile. I guess we do have completely different schedules and other things to concentrate on so we just didn’t get the chance. I know we both deserve a second chance. Like starting our relationship over again and I would love to but I’m seeing someone else at the moment.

Listen, I’m not trying to dog you and I’m not trying to be a bitch. Please don’t hate me! Fuck. I don’t know what I’m trying to say. This is hard for me because I still want to see you but I’ve already made a commitment to someone else. I really don’t know what the hell I’m supposed to do or say so please don’t be mad at me. I’m not just trying to throw you a shitty line but I really want to stay friends and stay in touch.

If you don’t have any plans this weekend, I wold love to go out with you. I know we would still have a good time. I apologize if I lead you on in any way or I have hurt your feelings in any way. Please understand that I really want to be friends still. I still want to spend time with you too. Mabye Saturday night we could go shoot some pool or see a movie or something. This tim it will be my treat =)

Listen, I really do believe you deserve someone better than me. I think that whoever that person is, they know how lucky they are to have a special guy like you.

Please promise me we’ll keep in touch and that you will always stay handsome. Once again, I hope you understand. Always XXXX

P.S. Call me and we’ll go out!

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I don’t know why I still have this. I think I kept it as a memory of things to come… Actually the separation was probably more my fault. I had usually a case of A.D.D. with my sports schedules, friends (priority over women) and the people I dated (which typically came third). I know at it wasn’t the sex well because I never had any with this girl… now I come to think about it, that was probably the problem! I do know that the guy she spoke of about dating in this letter, did have sex with her and as a consequence got her knocked up – of course he’s a bastard child now as he’s gone to college by now. Ah well I wish her well and hope it all worked out for her. I’m VERY happy for the situation I am in! Comment le parc va-t-il en ?t?

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Halloween in NYC

My first trip to NYC and it was a great weekend. I went for work, to find my woman in the city and to meet up with with friends Christine, Moni, and Steve.

I think it was a full weekend as the Yankees were headed through the World Series playoffs, I watched one of the games at Smith and Wollensky’s. I walked much of the city seeing the Rocketts in Grand Central Terminal, Central Park, Times Square, World Trade Center disaster site, City Hall, Battery Park, and getting a sunset view of the city from the Empire State building.

Being that I had some friends in town, I also got a chance to check out some Halloween parties (this year I dressed as a magician and even had the bloody rabbit parts in my hat), hit up a few clubs (Encore and Avalon), see much of the village Halloween parade, and dine out at some fine NYC restaurants. think I’ll be moving here soon!

Here’s some video and picture highlights:


New York in Oct 2003 Gallery

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Blowing up in South Beach

Have you ever been so frustrated and stressed out with one person that the internal feeling was like a heart attack? I think I had a total break down this last weekend on my trip and it’s probably ended my time with this person. I can’t now detail one thing but it’s a whole package kind of problem.

I went out to South Beach this past weekend with a woman I’m dating and stayed at the Doubletree Surfcomber Hotel. Conveniently it’s the national butch lesbian convention at my hotel and each day, the pool is packed with all the participants for the convention. Contrary to believe, it didn’t make for good eye candy at the pool but I had my own things to worry about.

We hit the beach or the pool most of the weekend, hit up an empty sushi resturant (Chill and Sushi), Mojito’s and Mango’s Tropical Cafe on the beach strip. Clubs were Opium, Crobar, and Nikki Beach, among others.

I can’t even remember what started the fights except I’m sure it revolved around jealousy and an imbalanced relationship. I can’t see this going any further emotionally. Regardless, here’s some pics of the weekend:


South Beach, Fl Gallery