Strength can overcome any odds. In relationships there’s no time to obsess about pettiness. Instead, practice a mantra of: Make each second count. I am very proud of someone very close to me and her quest to achieve accomplishment on her own. but she should know she’s never alone… I remember all that jazz in the park…
Austin Vegas v2.0
Still working out the bugs and the style but at least I have something now….wow… haven’t touched this shit in over a year and look at all that’s happened…. more to get into later….realize I’m right now writing to my self since AV.com v1.0 revisited is now new again and has zero fan following… :( more to come…. salute…
Rejected in 1995
I wanted to share some bullshit from a former life…. this is a real letter, it happened and yes… I most certainly have moved on and let it go…
I used to send out Valentines cards more back in the day. Valentines is a sore subject and a worthless, Hallmark day driven fully by capitalism and not worthy of the term “holiday”. On Feb. 1, 1995 I received a Sierra Club card from a some chick I was dating and sent her a V-card. Apparently I hadn’t spoken to her in some time and she hadn’t talked called me back in a while either… if you care:
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Austin-
Hey handsome. How’s it going? Well, thanks a lot for the valentine’s card. I really liked it. Listen, I’ve been meaning to talk to you for a while but I guess I just keep putting it off. Anyway, I have really enjoyed all the time we have spent together and I hope we will continue to go out and do stuff together. I guess I have just had too many problems lately and most of the time I don’t know how the hell to handle life in general. I don’t know why we stopped seeing each other there for awhile. I guess we do have completely different schedules and other things to concentrate on so we just didn’t get the chance. I know we both deserve a second chance. Like starting our relationship over again and I would love to but I’m seeing someone else at the moment.
Listen, I’m not trying to dog you and I’m not trying to be a bitch. Please don’t hate me! Fuck. I don’t know what I’m trying to say. This is hard for me because I still want to see you but I’ve already made a commitment to someone else. I really don’t know what the hell I’m supposed to do or say so please don’t be mad at me. I’m not just trying to throw you a shitty line but I really want to stay friends and stay in touch.
If you don’t have any plans this weekend, I wold love to go out with you. I know we would still have a good time. I apologize if I lead you on in any way or I have hurt your feelings in any way. Please understand that I really want to be friends still. I still want to spend time with you too. Mabye Saturday night we could go shoot some pool or see a movie or something. This tim it will be my treat =)
Listen, I really do believe you deserve someone better than me. I think that whoever that person is, they know how lucky they are to have a special guy like you.
Please promise me we’ll keep in touch and that you will always stay handsome. Once again, I hope you understand. Always XXXX
P.S. Call me and we’ll go out!
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I don’t know why I still have this. I think I kept it as a memory of things to come… Actually the separation was probably more my fault. I had usually a case of A.D.D. with my sports schedules, friends (priority over women) and the people I dated (which typically came third). I know at it wasn’t the sex well because I never had any with this girl… now I come to think about it, that was probably the problem! I do know that the guy she spoke of about dating in this letter, did have sex with her and as a consequence got her knocked up – of course he’s a bastard child now as he’s gone to college by now. Ah well I wish her well and hope it all worked out for her. I’m VERY happy for the situation I am in! Comment le parc va-t-il en ?t?