Re-org and update notice

I’ve noticed this is my first post in almost 2 months. It’s not for a lack of “free” time but mostly a re-prioritization of other things I need to do in my life. Since the provision of time off, I’ve spent some much needed time with the family and with my future wife.

I realize it’s not financially justifiable for me to not push immediately for a new job but I’ve been working head down for almost 4 years. I’ve felt I’ve made a justifiable difference in the companies I’ve worked for, earned them millions of dollars in sales and yet my end result of it all is I’m now looking for a new company to start all over again with. For those that are employed these feelings of prioritizing self worth and focus may not be immediately apparent but I’m finding it exceptionally positive for me to get centered before jumping back into the career field.

In being so well organized and time focused in my career, I’ve left my personal life quite in disarray. I have over a decade of digital documents and history of work cluttered on multiple disk hard drives, CD’s and even floppies. I’ve consolidated, organized and triple backed up the important financial histories, address books, work projects and personal projects. I’ve spent some time upgrading the backed of most of my web sites (, and rebuilding my Shopping site (which still needs now the content). I’ve made the decision to consolidate and standardize my social profile by privatizing most of the non-work related content, and making my twitter, FB, stumbleupon, and other sites more accessible.

I’ve had additional time to refocus on photography again. I purchased a new lens and have also consolidated and cleaned up my galleries. Creating a Flickr site for the photography and using my smugmug site more for an online repository for all my pictures. There’s still more work to do here but it’s getting there.

With the added time I’ve had the opportunity to read more, finishing books on Johnny Cash, John Adams, and Savannah GA (Midnight in the Garden of Good and Evil). I’ve reviewed my paper subscriptions and moved much of my reading to online; consolidating everything into RSS readers or twitter feeds now. I’ve also evaluated my subscriptions and am keeping items that I’m most interested in (NY Local, Food, Photography, Travel, and Music for personal and Info Sec, Mobile, Cloud Computing, and many other IP tech solutions for career related reading). I’ve dropped periodicals that were not keeping my interest (Rolling Stone, Forbes and Travel & Leisure mag), not written well (NY Mag), or ?I just don’t have the time for them (ESPN).

I’ve been traveling a lot again and with the added time I’m still participating in industry events (Just completed the SC World Congress 2009 event).

All of this has not translated into work on my blogs, which I’ve just reciently committed to get back to. Unfortunately I’ll be doing some journalistic “No-Nos” in that you’ll see some old, historical posts pop up that are back dated. This is mostly for my own “Personal Journal” rather than to be periodically accurate, but I have over 40 started posts that need to be finished and I’ll try to keep them dated to when they were started – most are personal related for my own record. I’ve also started writing for Minor-Ripper which I’m committing to post every Wed and hopefully at one other time per week (twice a week) and keeping up with my local reviews on Yelp.

Last I’ve taken the time to reevaluate my time and study for the GMAT for future work on an MBA. This coincides with additional research I’m doing in my industry for consulting and future career work. More to come.

Cheers and best regards,

After Pat’s Birthday… again

kevin & patAfter Pat’s Birthday
Posted originally on Oct 19, 2006
(Photo courtesy of the Tillman Family – Pat Tillman (left) and his brother Kevin stand in front of a Chinook helicopter in Saudi Arabia before their tour of duty as Army Rangers in Iraq in 2003.)

AV’s note: Kevin Tillman joined the Army with his brother Pat in 2002, and they served together in Iraq and Afghanistan. Pat was killed in Afghanistan on April 22, 2004. Kevin, who was discharged in 2005, has written this powerful, must-read document. I realize it’s 3 years after this has been written, but I repost this today because there’s still concerns I have about this country. How the people are managing their own lives and the directions they are encouraging our leaders to go. Read this and ask yourself is this still being tolerated, have we fixed the wrongs of the last administration or are we continuing to perpetuate them…

By Kevin Tillman

It is Pat’s birthday on November 6, and elections are the day after. It gets me thinking about a conversation I had with Pat before we joined the military. He spoke about the risks with signing the papers. How once we committed, we were at the mercy of the American leadership and the American people. How we could be thrown in a direction not of our volition. How fighting as a soldier would leave us without a voice… until we got out.

Much has happened since we handed over our voice:
Somehow we were sent to invade a nation because it was a direct threat to the American people, or to the world, or harbored terrorists, or was involved in the September 11 attacks, or received weapons-grade uranium from Niger, or had mobile weapons labs, or WMD, or had a need to be liberated, or we needed to establish a democracy, or stop an insurgency, or stop a civil war we created that can’t be called a civil war even though it is. Something like that.

Somehow America has become a country that projects everything that it is not and condemns everything that it is.

Somehow our elected leaders were subverting international law and humanity by setting up secret prisons around the world, secretly kidnapping people, secretly holding them indefinitely, secretly not charging them with anything, secretly torturing them. Somehow that overt policy of torture became the fault of a few “bad apples” in the military.

Somehow back at home, support for the soldiers meant having a five-year-old kindergartener scribble a picture with crayons and send it overseas, or slapping stickers on cars, or lobbying Congress for an extra pad in a helmet. It’s interesting that a soldier on his third or fourth tour should care about a drawing from a five-year-old; or a faded sticker on a car as his friends die around him; or an extra pad in a helmet, as if it will protect him when an IED throws his vehicle 50 feet into the air as his body comes apart and his skin melts to the seat.

Somehow the more soldiers that die, the more legitimate the illegal invasion becomes.

Somehow American leadership, whose only credit is lying to its people and illegally invading a nation, has been allowed to steal the courage, virtue and honor of its soldiers on the ground.

Somehow those afraid to fight an illegal invasion decades ago are allowed to send soldiers to die for an illegal invasion they started.

Somehow faking character, virtue and strength is tolerated.

Somehow profiting from tragedy and horror is tolerated.

Somehow the death of tens, if not hundreds, of thousands of people is tolerated.

Somehow subversion of the Bill of Rights and The Constitution is tolerated.

Somehow suspension of Habeas Corpus is supposed to keep this country safe.

Somehow torture is tolerated.

Somehow lying is tolerated.

Somehow reason is being discarded for faith, dogma, and nonsense.

Somehow American leadership managed to create a more dangerous world.

Somehow a narrative is more important than reality.

Somehow America has become a country that projects everything that it is not and condemns everything that it is.

Somehow the most reasonable, trusted and respected country in the world has become one of the most irrational, belligerent, feared, and distrusted countries in the world.

Somehow being politically informed, diligent, and skeptical has been replaced by apathy through active ignorance.

Somehow the same incompetent, narcissistic, virtueless, vacuous, malicious criminals are still in charge of this country.

Somehow this is tolerated.

Somehow nobody is accountable for this.

In a democracy, the policy of the leaders is the policy of the people. So don’t be shocked when our grandkids bury much of this generation as traitors to the nation, to the world and to humanity. Most likely, they will come to know that “somehow” was nurtured by fear, insecurity and indifference, leaving the country vulnerable to unchecked, unchallenged parasites.

Luckily this country is still a democracy. People still have a voice. People still can take action.

It can start after Pat’s birthday.

Brother and Friend of Pat Tillman,
Kevin Tillman

My first completed website

I picked up web design as a hobby in 1998 when I worked at the Lawrence Livermore National Lab. Part of my project was working with the LLNL team to study of the effects of high temperature and intense compression (as a result of long term pressures or immediate pressures via earthquakes) on the tuff from the nuclear waste repository site located in Yucca Mountain, Nevada. With that project I needed to learn coding and the Solaris OS which was what most of the fracture modeling and computational data was run on.

Because a lot of our study was waiting… waiting for pressure systems to build over time and waiting for computer modeling to finalize, I spent a lot of time learning other systems in the LLNL lab including understanding what all this World Wide Web and AOL Chat room excitement was about. I picked up HTML and my first site was actually a very simple web page based on astronomy and began with “This is the intro site for Austin “Vegas” and his interests”.

I parlayed that knowledge into my education and built my first professional web page for Cal Poly San Luis Obispo. Doing a web search today, I found that it’s still up and being used by the engineers there (unfortunately it needs update, as my Professor is no longer with Cal Poly) :

Advanced Air Pollution Control Controlling Particulate Emissions with Electrostatic Precipitators

Although the Yucca Mountain project was canceled a few years ago, excellent research was developed on how rock materials fracture and of course I started on a path of web design as perpetual side projects…